As I’m writing this I’m having yet another suspected miscarriage. Last Wednesday I found the courage to take a pregnancy test. I was 4 days late, I knew something was up as I had been feeling rubbish for the past few days.
If you don’t know my history I had 3 miscarriages before baby girl was born in 2016. So I know exactly what it’s like to miscarry. I have spent the last few years wondering why I’m unlucky at conceiving.
The test last Wednesday was what I call a strong positive test. The lines were very strong and not faint at all.
For a few days we were so excited that baby girl was going to get a sibling. Then Saturday happened. I was at work for 5:30am felt a bit rough all day, but by the afternoon I felt cold and shivery. I knew straight away that it was happening again. On all 3 of my previous miscarriages I got cold and shivery which I’m guessing is my body rejecting what is not meant to be.
By the evening I started bleeding and my fears were confirmed.
After having the three recurring miscarriages, I was told that there was nothing medically wrong with me I was just unlucky.
I’m extremely grateful with baby girl and I know some people can’t even get that far, but after seeing her play with her cousin and how she interacts with other kids i know she would love a sibling to play with.
My mum had four kids and not one problem at all, she says she could get pregnant just by looking at my dad! It’s funny as we never used to hear about miscarriages years ago, now it’s all to common unfortunately. My sister has been through one and my best friend has had a couple.
I guess with these new fangled pregnancy tests that detect the pregnancy hormones really early in the body that we end up knowing before we should. Before the little egg can start to grow.
As it’s really early, I have to wait and see over the next couple of weeks what’s happening. Fingers crossed x