To begin with I want to say I have nothing against people who bottle feed with formula. I want to set that straight. I’m not here to upset anyone, but I’m voicing my own opinions.
So a couple of weeks back I made the decision to try to start baby girl on some formula. For when I go back to work in under 2 months. She then can have milk during the day when I’m not there. I have never been able to pump any extra of my own milk off. I seem to produce just enough.
My plan is still to breastfeed her mornings and evenings. So she’s still getting all the goodness from my milk.
Anyway so I read up exactly how to make the milk from on the box. The powder doesn’t smell too bad. I have a habit of smelling food before I eat it. Although technically I’m not having the milk.
When the bottle is made up and cooled to the correct temperature I try to give it to baby girl. She has a few sucks. Mostly chews the teat. I’m sure she thinks it’s a game because when she’s finished playing around with the teat. Her little hands start grabbing at my vest top and trying to rip my bra open to get to her boobie milk.
She isn’t having any of the bottle milk. The next thing she throws the bottle out of my hand onto the floor.
I can’t help but smile. I think it belongs on the floor as well!
My mum has more luck feeding her the formula which I am pleased about as she is going to look after her when I return to work in October. She obviously smells my milk and knows it’s better.
At least she is finally taking the bottle in some kind of fashion, It’s only taken 6 months to get her to have it!
I have never been around formula milk before. So did not expect the smell from it when I poured the used bottle down the sink. I thought I was going to gag. It’s horrid.I don’t know how to describe the smell of it. Sickly sweet stinking. It’s gross. Yet I have to feed this to my baby.
I feel really bad that I have to give this to her. I wouldn’t drink it myself. That first time I tried her with it I couldn’t help but shed a few tears. I love breastfeeding it’s amazing. Words to describe it are hard to come by. There is that feeling of closeness, mother and baby bond. Comforting.
I’m hoping she won’t have to have too much of the formula while I’m at work. Hopefully by the time she is 8 months old when I go back. Maybe mornings, late afternoon and evening breast feeds would be sufficient.
She is growing up so fast and my time as a stay at home mum with her is getting short
But I have the dreadful stuff in the cupboard just in case.